I did not get the closet build out finished last week and I am totally okay with that. Because what I did get done is prepare the closet for it’s new role as my favorite closet in the house. Below is the before photo of the closet with the single, builder grade wire shelf. The closet is not living up to its potential at all…
Now, brace yourself for the aforementioned sappy, life-affirming metaphor. I don’t know if it was the fatigue, or the paint fumes, but I began to really identify with this closet during the past week. Like the closet, I haven’t been living up to my potential in quite a while. But only as a woman, and person. As a mother and protector of Jack, I am an unmatched and rousing success. As Maggie, I have left a few things untended.
As I removed the wire shelf, the anchors and screws that had supported it clung to the wall like a dog to a bone, and like I have been to my past. Once finally and violently removed, the holes left in the drywall were gaping and dramatic. I couldn’t believe the size and design of the anchors. How could this much engineering be required for a lone wire shelf? But the ugly shelf was expected to hold perhaps a hundred pounds of clothes and the drywall foundation would never be strong enough.
Anyway, I guess my marriage was like the anchors and screws. Over engineered to hold up an ugly and dysfunctional relationship that, no matter how many beautiful clothes, or trips, jewelry or other “things” were hung on it, would never be pretty, and certainly never strong enough to support us. It, we, looked great on paper. Everyone said so. I thought so. But in practice, the design was flawed and the life we built fell apart. So, moving forward, I patched and sanded the voids left in the wall and painted them a lovely shade of creamy off-white.
Isn’t it a beautiful clean slate? I am still looking for the spackle and sand paper and paint that will transform my soul into a clean slate, but in the meantime, I find that hard work and sweat are a great help.
Below, I have included a photo of the lower half of the tower that will be in the center of the closet, to give you some perspective. It is about two feet wide and the closet is about seven or eight feet wide. The bedroom is kind of small, so I am going to install drawers in the tower so that a dresser isn’t necessary in the room.
The next step involves a level, a drill and a saw, and although I am quite comfortable with a firearm, these tools scare me. So I am waiting on help to arrive this weekend. If all goes well, the closet will be finished by this time next week and I will have a wonderfully fresh, clean new place to look at and be inspired by moving forward.
We can all thank HGTV and the DIY network for the metaphors and disproportionate importance placed on home improvement this week.
Happy home improving!